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Heather and Ewa - The Cover Story
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Thu, Feb. 27th, 2003 02:33 am
Heather and Ewa

Well, no news is good news, I suppose. But alas, I have news. Yesterday Heather and I split up. Pretty silly argument, but it was a fatal exception. I'd rather not talk about that. However, despiting losing my girlfriend yesterday, what irks me more is how another act of good will has been turned against me. I recently took to getting along with Ewa, Adam's girlfriend. I decided that she was here to stay, and I should start getting to know her. So I invited her over to Riley a few times to talk with me, and IM'd her more often. I thought all was going well. So today I get an AIM from Adam, telling me he is uncomfortable with me and Ewa hanging out at my place unsupervised and would rather we stop. I cannot express how enraged that made me. To think Adam, arguably my closest friend, would think me capable of cheating on him with his girlfriend, and retroactively my own, bothers me more than I can say. Have I really failed so in my relationships that my friends suspect me of such heinous acts? I can only assume I've earned this reputation, but my God, why? Perhaps the most disturbing line of Adam's warning to me is that:

I've tried time and again to make it clear that she doesn't have to be my friends' friend, though I like that fact. Particularly that she likes you guys in general and is doing this of her own volition.
--SirRoxton, 26 February 2003, 2219


I remember not long ago, Adam told me that a failure by his girlfriend to integrate into his existing circle of friends would be a relationship-ender for him. I am forced to consider the implications of his words; that if he had to choose between Ewa and me, he would choose Ewa. As I was talking with Ewa tonight (our last meeting until further notice), I realized the full implications of that statement. Adam is now my only tie to my former Academy friends. Everything happens at Clark now, and without Adam, I am unable to get a ride to those functions. What little contact I have with Rachael would be cut, as she would undoubtably choose Ewa and Adam and Justin and her other Clark friends over the relatively high expense of seeing me. And Tom is so enthralled with Ewa that he would happily follow Adam's lead. That leaves me with my circle of friends here at WPI, who I am always a peripheral element of. Is it possible that Ewa signals the beginning of the end for me? That I will finally be cast out of this circle, my oldest and best friends.... I don't know how I would react to that. When did my light go out of sight, and why wasn't I paying attention?

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