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Darkness All Around - The Cover Story
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Tue, Mar. 5th, 2002 10:18 pm
Darkness All Around

Sometimes its real easy to get down in life. I don't know why, but lately, its been harder and harder for me to justify my life. I get up to work, to go to school, to work more, and who cares? I just keep barging through life without a real motivation. Somedays it just seems like its hardly worth the effort. I spent the day at Checkerboard today. It was somewhat busy. Pete, Ben, Tom and I went back to my house for Magic and Halo. I beat Pete at Magic, but only because Ben and I double-teamed him. As usual, in a fair fight, I uniformly get crushed. I keep trying to have fun, but when after the third or fourth turn I'm waiting for them to just hurry up and kill me, its no fun. Its just more rail-on-John time. Halo was better, but I feel bad about it because I am so much better at it then the others are that whoever is on my team wins. There's no real challenge. And I'm sure I'd feel really bad if I ever lost. Its just annoying. I hate being egotisical, but sometimes I wonder if my efforts to change are a fool's errand.

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